You know what really grinds my gears... The Beginnings

"You know what really grinds my gears... Where exactly in the bible does it say a man can't fire off some knuckle children in the privacy of his own neighbors living room while his neighbors at work cause I don't have a DVD player. Well I don't know where it says it cause the bible is way too long to read!"

You know what really grinds my gears... That Gaddamn Negativity!

Growing up I never really thought of myself as a negative person. But more and more I know I have become just that. I'm trying to think of when this whole negative streak started and to be honest I can't really pinpoint when and how it came to fruition. I would say that many circumstances in my life have built me up to be that pessimistic person that you all know.... and love (yeah, right!) .

I think that I use the negativity as way to not be dissapointed. I would look at a situation and see how and where things could go bad. So in turn, I wouldnt be suprised when shit hits the fan. It was almost like self sabotage. It's like the old saying, "Hope for the best, but prepare for the worst." Except that I would do it backwards by... "Preparing for the worst, but hoping for the best." I know it doesnt seem too different, but when your initial thought is negative instead of positive, it kinda sets the tone in a negative light.

I'm starting to believe that I am sabotaging myself by having this overall pessimistic outlook. To this point, I feel I must change my outlook on things. A whole life change is something that can take a lot of time and effort. But I've got all the time in the world...It's now time to show the effort. Positive thinking can go a long way... Hopefully, it can go a long ways to getting me this gaddamn job.

...and that my friends is whats grinding my gears!

You know what really grinds my gears... Your face!

That is all... For now.

...and that my friends is what's really grinding my gears!

P.S. This blog is coming back... I've got alot of things to gripe, groan, complain and just generally be negative about. So for all the 3 readers... Stay tuned bitches!